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With a lot of trial and error, failure and success, I have to admit that I have struggled to know if I have what it takes to be a “leader” and grow my business into the company that I imagine. Sure, I’m creative, I have some influence and I can make stuff happen, but I’m asking the core question: Am I meant to be a leader?
[Gulp] Cue fear, worry and doubt.
I have come to the conclusion that I’m not a “leader” in my own conventional understanding of the concept. I don’t geek out on HR protocols and strategies or respond within the first 20 seconds of an email hitting my inbox. I rarely wake up at 5:00am to go for a run, do my morning devo and analyze my databases while delegating all my to-dos.
That’s not me! Cue worry, fear and doubt.
I have built up this idea in my mind of what a leader is and what a leader isn’t based on things I’ve read, seen and experienced in others. I’ve easily categorized myself in a genre of what a leader isn’t, namely because I’m an unconventional “leader.”
This season has taught me that I have placed too much emphasis on the idea of the word “leadership,” instead of just accepting the position and the opportunity that God has naturally wired me up to do and put right in front of me.
Personally, although I don’t have it all figured out, one thing I know is that I don’t want to let fear, worry and doubt be my anchor anymore!
*Today’s devo written by: Promise Tangeman, Founder and Art Director of Go Live HQ, a hub for graphic and web design resources and workshops for creative small businesses.
Those who look to him are radiant; their faces are never covered with shame. This poor man called, and the LORD heard him; he saved him out of all his troubles (Psalm 34:5-6).
We live in a dark world. Rain falls. Storms come. Lightning strikes. Our lives can shatter at any moment. The roof can fall in. As long as we live, we will have something to lose – little pieces of ourselves. The people we love, the life choices we cherish – there is always something at risk, something dear, some cause for fear.
We can choose to surrender to that fear and let it rule our lives, or we can surrender to Christ all those things we love and fear we will lose, and live fearlessly – undaunted.
Choose to trust Jesus with everything and everyone you love. Don’t let fear have its way in your life. Instead, choose God’s power and strength and let Him give you a sound mind.
Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here! (2 Corinthians 5:17)
“… but we had hoped that he was the one who was going to redeem Israel. And what is more, it is the third day since all this took place” (Luke 24:21).
Two heartbroken and bitterly disappointed disciples, leaving Jerusalem after Jesus’ burial, were on the road to a town called Emmaus. They had hoped and believed that Jesus was the one sent to redeem Israel. But those hopes were shattered just as His body was shattered and then beaten, bruised, crucified and buried. Their dreams died on the cross with Him.
A man met them on the road and walked along with them as they talked of these things. But they were so downcast they never took a good look at their fellow traveler. As the three talked about the recent events, the apparent stranger began explaining to them how Israel was going to be redeemed. He knew the promises of God by heart and explained how those promises would be fulfilled in such a way that they would change the world. A new kingdom was at hand.
When they reached Emmaus, the disciples urged the man to have dinner with them. When they all sat down to eat that night, he took bread, gave thanks, broke it and began to give it to them. Suddenly their eyes were opened. The one walking with them through their disappointment, the one who gave them hope that God had a plan – a plan so big that even crucifixion couldn’t stop it, a plan that would in fact use the crucifixion to redeem the world – was Jesus Himself.
Sometimes, like the disciples, we’re so blinded by disappointment that we can’t see Jesus walking with us through our heartache, leading us to something better ahead. He wants to show us that God has made a way for us that leads far beyond disappointment.
For he has not despised or scorned the suffering of the afflicted one; he has not hidden his face from him but has listened to his cry for help (Psalm 22:24).
I will never forget the time Nick and I walked through an unexpected and very challenging experience. We found out we were pregnant with our second baby, and we were ecstatic. Then one day, I went to a routine doctor’s appointment, excited to hear my baby’s heartbeat for the first time. As the doctor began to listen for the heartbeat, I held my breath. After several minutes, he said: “Christine, I’m so sorry, but I can’t find a heartbeat.”
To say I was utterly shocked is an understatement. Could I still believe that God is good, even when my circumstances were not? Would I be able to trust Him?
In the days following my loss, I took care to be constantly in the house of God. It was during one of these times of worship that I had what can only be described as a supernatural encounter with God in which He healed my heart. He took my grief and filled me with a renewed hope for my future.
Holding on to God in the midst of a painful season or trial might not always be the easiest thing to do, but trust me: If I can do it, anyone can do it. The same Holy Spirit who helped me is available to help each one of us.